By Junie|Thoughts of Junie
This question speaks volumes to me. Not because of its nature, concept, or even the thought behind it. It speaks volumes to me because it’s a question I simply can’t answer.
To describe myself to someone else is like trying to explain why it rains.
The truth is, I don’t know a lot about myself. I know that I’m confused. I know that I’m alone—not always by choice. I know that I’m hurting, emotionally and mentally. I know that I’m only 24. I’m pregnant. And I’m alone.
Well… apart from the baby growing inside of me.
You see, I’ve written many stories on this very blog about me, always saying they were about a friend.
I never believed anyone would care about me. Truth be told, I still don’t believe it now. But I’m tired of hiding who I am behind a screen.
I started this blog as a way to escape myself.
Instead, I created another version of me; An online persona. Someone who doesn’t have to be alone. Someone who doesn’t have depression or anxiety. Someone who doesn’t need to work seven days a week just to provide for herself and the family she’ll have to raise on her own.
I started this blog in hopes that someone—anyone—would relate, comment back, share a story, or offer a kind word.
But in the end, it’s just another ruse.
I’m unsure how I would describe myself… or if I even would at all.
Maybe I’d rather stick to being a wallflower—quietly existing in my own way.
Kind Regards,
The Voice of Juniper Wind
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